Gone With The Movies

All the Disturbia from the Rear Window, woke you up
Leon and Matilda are the culprits for all the cacophony
No caped crusader will come to your rescue; who cares.
Then you look at yourself and feel every moment is making
you distant from your ambitions, you feel that you are killing
your darlings.

You start up, cannot handle these Butterfly On A Wheel situations,
you secretly admire but wish luck to all the belles like Signora Malena
and pass by them just like a dying Perfume in the air, bidding
Farewell to Concubine.

Most of the times you are put up with the Silence of the Lambs
which you don't get; you become an introvert, and only think of saying
'Read my lips', but no one will make out, all that is Entrapment, subtly Insidious.

There is a Keyzer Soze around, and is envying
your simple Inglorious bastard life,
and a Leo, busy conceiving Inception, making you the subject,
trying to steal your blood diamonds.

By evening you realize all these Alien Species or Transformers,
they took a Wrong Turn with Time machine; expending your life
for their fight with all the Risen, Fallen and Salvation.

You escape, get back home, the Mirrors won't let you be on
The Social Network, they write 'Why I killed my father' - bulls***,
who Knows, you got other problems. So you get out, searching for
a Fight Club, for your Project Mayhem, but this Ghost Protocol in
The Dark makes it Mission Impossible, you think you should
never back down though.

You will just pray for yourself, Woody and Alfred; keep patting your back
saying grow up, grow up, but the fact is you are growing old, Pity. And
many say there is No Country for Old Men.

In the end, you hunch for A Walk to Remember with Someone Special,
lie on The Beach, and hoping to wake up Resurrected for all the Redemption
to make yet, like in The Shawshank Redemption.

Credits

(Movies and References in the order of their appearance)

Disturbia - en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Disturbia_(film)

The Rear Window - en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rear_Window

Leon and Matilda - en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Léon_(film)

Caped Crusader - en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Dark_Knight_(film)

Butter on a Wheel - en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Butterfly_on_a_Wheel

Malena - en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Malèna

Perfume - en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Perfume:_The_Story_of_a_Murderer_(film)

Farewell to Concubine - en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Farewell_My_Concubine_(film)

Silence of the Lambs - en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Silence_of_the_Lambs_(film)

Read My Lips - en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sur_mes_lèvres

Entrapment - en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Entrapment_(film)

Insidious - en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Insidious_(film)

Keyzer Soze - en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Usual_Suspects

Inglorious bastards - en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Inglorious_Bastards

Leo - en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Leonardo_DiCaprio

Inception - en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Inception

Blood Diamonds - en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Blood_Diamond_(film)

Alien - en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Alien_(film)

Species - en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Species_(film)

Transformers - en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Transformers_(film)

Wrong Turn - en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Wrong_Turn

Time Machine - en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Time_Machine_(1960_film)

Terminator Salvation - en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Terminator_Salvation

Mirrors - en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mirrors_(film)

The Social Network - en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Social_Network

Why I Killed My Father - en.wikipedia.org/wiki/How_I_Killed_My_Father

Fight Club - en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fight_Club

Ghost Protocol - en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mission:_Impossible_–_Ghost_Protocol

Mission Impossible - en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mission:_Impossible_(film)

Never Back Down - en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Never_Back_Down

Woody - en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Woody_Allen

Alfred - en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Alfred_Hitchcock

No Country For Old Men - en.wikipedia.org/wiki/No_Country_for_Old_Men_(film)

A Walk To Remember - en.wikipedia.org/wiki/A_Walk_to_Remember

Someone Special - en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Someone_Special_(film)

The Beach - en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Beach_(film)

Resurrected - en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Resurrection_(1980_film)

The Shawshank Redemption - en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Shawshank_Redemption

Accident

The very birth, in itself, is purely an accident
you keep crying for having survived that;
No one understands it. Pity.

Then, with all your notice you are fitted into

d^N(You)/d(time)d(money)d(space)….

which definitely doesn't have any constant zeroes.

In this continuum of continuous change at some point

you are accidentally convolved (or multiplied) with  a strong impulse,

which leaves you with nothing but what you had

at your birth (or before that for non causal beings!).

You feel alleviated, and start pondering about that

impulse (d(t)), so called death, was it an accident?

No!

Annexures:

You - Y is assumed a continuous causal being.

Y(t) x d(t) = Y(0)

It was a dream

All of your life is just worth the value you have given to it
all this rumbling and raw pain you have endeavored
all of what you have achieved while losing and some day
you die just to wake up and realize ' It was a dream'.

Now you take every step cautiously,
but at some point you start feeling
that nothing has changed, the world
itself hasn't changed. Suddenly,
your crux burst out saying even
this is not real. You feel you are lost.
All of this, God, religion, system are
just the trick of an architect.

Now you start searching for him,
being aware of the fact that you have
nothing to recognize him.
Unfortunately you don't even have
your totem to rescue.

All the projections around you
start acting weird, and they too feel the
otherwise. You stop for a moment
and feel the trap. You look
up to the sky, in return it says,

"You are buried infinitely deep within yourself. Wake up."

To Three Years

I am traversing the same contour since three years,
still a scalar, only magnitude with no direction,
not sure when will I find my divergence to become
a vector in some directions, and hope to have zero curl
that is being irrotational.

It seems that I have taken enough of this precipice in
my Region of Convergence, though a stable system,
tangled in the damped oscillations of human emotion.

At times I feel that my being very human is to do everything
with the impedances in the network. To be fair,
I am trying to amplify and filter noise from any signal, but lately
I have been receiving no information but noise. The channel itself
through which I am receiving these signals is doped as I see,
Money being the filthy DC source trying to conquer my charecteristics.

Been always missing or I must say negelected, the voltage disturbances*
in my way. But I agree some have made me experience beautiful property called levitation. Time, the medium which I am in, has been always adjusting the permitivity, permeability coefficients in its favour, and forcing me to believe that someting more strong is waiting up ahead. I know when I meet the other half, it will just be a freefall.

This contour has so detested me that it started adding insult to my injuries.

Never-the-less, I now see some twigs to this contour, which have left me with the hope
of finding some independent sources of happiness and heal me atleat at the speed of light.

To Three Years.

(* - I guess you might have figured out what it refers to! )

Hall Of Fame in a Government School

Due to insufficient preparation, last weekend I couldn’t take any class in the school. But I had a small relevant presentation which I wanted to share and did so, also promised to get more good training videos* and share them on Monday.

I found some good material and went to school to share them on Monday. As I was getting late to office, I briefly explained about each of the videos to HM, she agreed to take a class with those. There I met a volunteer from Indian American Council, who has come to explain the teachers on how to use computers as teaching aid rather than seeing it as a subject/curriculum. I was glad to evidence such an initiative. The volunteer and I had a small chat, discussing each other’s duties; he understood that my service was implementation of his guidelines.

After that, HM and I moved out, having a chat about my next topics. On reaching a common room, HM showed me a chart almost on top of the wall, having the names, scores, Photos of toppers from each class and said that we trying to fill some encouragement in our students with this. I was very happy seeing such a move in a Government school; I said that it reminded me of the Hall Of Fame in our organization, where we do similar kind of stuff for appreciation and encouragement. For which she replied ‘we are doing that to our students from this stage itself’.

I thus concluded ‘Hall Of Fame in a Government School – super!’ and started off to my office.

*: videos were related to Organic Chemistry for 10^th standard J

My first class on Electricity

I have been thinking of teaching since long time after I finished my graduation. This Teacher’s Day I did something other than just thinking. I took a resolution that I shall teach at the nearby Government High School for 2 hours on every Saturday. With the same intention I went to the school and talked to HM there. She was very much encouraging and allowed me to take lectures for any class, on any topic I want. What I liked the most at that moment was, HM openly said that their school doesn’t need money as they have enough funds from government and other organizations, so money was not they were actually looking out for.

I asked her whether I could take classes for high school students, and she readily agreed and asked me if I can take physics for them. I said I’m very much interested in that and shall surely take class on any topic which was required.

As one of my friends said: “‘Teach’ in the real sense of the word”, which I just did. I kind of hope that if I can change the mind set of at least one student and bring him to a level where he actually understands the subject for life, then I think my attempt has conceived some result. But nevertheless I'm happy that I made an attempt.

As said I took the lecture for 2 hours (with just one break), and I saw that students were really enjoying it and asking questions, cracking jokes yeah I think they had fun. I thought the real challenge would be teaching in English to a class of Telugu and Marathi medium students, but situation was good as I expected they didn’t had any problem to communicate with me. After the class, students asked me to come on every Saturday like that, for whom I'm very much thankful; HM and I discussed what lectures I should take on coming weekends.

Yes, it was liberating in the sense that I pushed myself to improve the situation to the extent possible by me. And I see there is a lot of scope for improvement every time. I think now maybe I have found some real purpose to not kill time consistently on Saturdays from now on.

Yeah, today I took ‘My first class on Electricity’.

World of Faith

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An image showing 'Percentage of people who say that Religion is an important part of their life-Vs-GDP Per Capita'.

The big gray circle on the top represents India; our worthy competitor, China, is missing though.

Sources:
Gallup